Is this normal?

I know it's only been a few days since he left but so far I haven't really felt all that sad about him being gone. I think about him ALL the time but still...I haven't sat down and cried over this yet. Only thing that's made me tear up in anyway was when "This is Just a Dream" by Carrie Underwood came on the radio while I was in the car with mom yesterday. It was so hard trying not to cry. Stupid me didn't even try to change radio stations. That song is definitely going on my DON'T LISTEN list. I guess I teared up a little bit when I saw he was online Monday night. That definitely made me happy. We actually got to talk on FB chat for 5 minutes and even though neither of us said much of anything, it's better than nothing.

Maybe I'm more depressed than sad about him being gone...yes, there is a difference between the two of those things. I can tell you without a doubt I do not feel sad. I've completely lost my appetite since I go his last text Sunday afternoon. The whole day I am starving but as soon as there is food on a plate in front of me, I don't want to eat at all. I am making myself eat, so don't worry about me getting some food disorder, I just wish I actually wanted to eat. Everything has tasted disgusting...even the steak we had last night for dinner. I didn't even want to eat lunch after my long run this morning and usually I can't stop eating after a run.

Bleh...here's to me hopefully getting semi back to normal soon...............